Where To Start!!!

I have never blogged before so please forgive me if this seems a little dry, and maybe seems like I don't know what I am saying. I think that is because i think faster than I can type. I am a single father of three lovely kids. Ayana 10, Zeke 3, and Kingston 1. I was married for six years and had ups and downs like any marriage but I didn't figure out a way to fix my marriage until it was over. I now have been mentally killing myself now for over a year, and it is not good for me nor is it my kids. I am having a hard time letting the marriage go, and I go over and over in my head a thousand times a day as to what I could have done better. I miss my now x wife with great intensity, and it affects everyone around me. I have so much anger because I know that I played a major role in my divorce. I feel like I am the only one going through this when it is not the case. I have been trying to figure out why am I so angry, and forgive myself so I can have a better life for myself my, my kids, and my x wife because we are going to still need each other even if we are not together.